A whole new side of love

Lovey dovey, cheesy, cranky, hearty, whatever you wanna call it, thats me. i tend to pour every bits of my feelings, to anyone. but mostly to them girls, and to the person i love, and adore. and here's a poem i made, NYAHAHAHAHA! well i was in Geo class, and we were told to finish this one tasksheet, which i finished early in the morning right before registration, and so i was jobless, this came out of it (;

FLU FLU FLU! haha, i think im going to be sick, this is cause my throat is killing me, to cough and it pops everytime, is embarassing enough. what more to keep on sniffing your mucus in at the same time? to avoid it from flowing outta your nose, which will also be more embarassing. i hate being sick, i LOATH it. its affecting my training, and also my schooldays. ive been so tired these past few days, ive been feeling sleepy every class, wait, except for GP! i loooove GP!

training was great at first until came to the moment where someone actually criticise me, in a harsh way. maybe im exaggerating, cause im not used to being told of my weaknesses that way, IM AWARE THAT IM SLOW. i am fat, and i aint got that whole lot of stamina. i just started this sport for god sake, and sports before this doesnt require me to run that much. YES I AM VERY SLOW. I DONT RUN THAT MUCH.

i promised someone that ill change for the better, well in this case is to be less clingy, today for start, i can only text when i really need to, but early morning, and before sleeping is a must, giiillaaaaaaaaa! this is so close to impossible, but i know im strong, and you're the reason i am here now, hee. instead of texting, i decided to just pour everything, here on this page. i frrrigggggiinnllyyyyy miss you!!! 

ive been hoping, i know i was warned about hoping. but yes, i cant lie to myself, i keep on hoping everyday for that day to come, what we have now, is still not enough for me. i know that we need more time to get to know each other and all, but whats so wrong about being together? i promise i wont do whatever your last relationship did to you,

Had an intense training today with the team, our tournament is coming, so im enjoying every bits of the last days of training, i cant wait for the tournament, we might be sleeping over KB on saturday night so we wont feel tired going all the way from Bandar the next day. 

You werent on the field today. I miss the moment where i said to myself "get in the game Syaz! stop looking!" haha. yeahh, i know its not a good thing, but i enjoy staring at you. You're my muse. Without you, training would suck. To me that is. i miss you, i really do. i miss your laughter. i miss everything about you. knowing that you wouldnt be coming, suck big time. HAHA. but trainign  was actually awesome tadii. for the first time ever, im not feeling tired after training. i enjoyed the game. i communicate a lot with my team mates. rugged lah kami. (: 

some say, "go now, what more do you wait for?" some say, "dont wait, go on, he'll pass if you dont catch up," some even say, "gooo!! dont ever waitt" this sentence means only one thing. To not wait for good things that comes along, take all the chances you've got. cause that chance may pass if you dont make a move. 

Im in a very lovey dovey mood lately. Serenity moment im having never will stop. Especially when i have a person like you to brighten up my everyday life. falling in love is not something that we can avoid. yes, ivebeen hurt so many times, but i never seem to get sick of it. well i do, but then after a few weeks, there will always be the right person that i fall for. in this very case, its you. yes, you. you know who you are. this feeling, im having is a rare one. i know ive been saying this, but yes, its totally different, cause you are different, in this position i have never been in. im taking the risk to stay loving you than leave. Good choice, yes? greatt. you promise to be beside me, whenever whatever happens. and yes, cintaa, i will too. 

Love, i know what im feeling now is love. i know its too soon for me to feel this. after what happened to me just last month. but yes, i myself find it hard to believe that i actually have this feeling, im not saying that its not a good thing. its a wonderful thing knowing that im still able to feel this way after what happened. but its just that, sometimes i think this feeling is wrong. AFRAID. TERRIFIED. SCARED. are the words to describe my feeling towards this feeling im having.

will you able to make me happy? well, there's no hesitation about this. cause you do, you make me smile all the time. reading your texts, all those sweet lines that came out from you, is so amazing. YOU ARE AMAZING. i dont want anything else now but to believe that you can make me much more happy. but, cinta. the problem here is, will you? will you not leave me like my last ex did? i told people that im done with this lovey dovey thingy. but yet, i still manage to accept this feeling. i dont wanna deny cause i know it would just hurt me.